On daughters

Right now my wife is pregnant, and we are in a small halo of people that I know that all independently decided to start having children, but are all pregnant at the same time.  Some are a little ahead or a little behind but ultimately we will all have children in 2011.  In our previous attempt we where going to have a girl and for myself I wanted this one to be a girl as well, for no other reason than I had gotten my mind ready for the daughter life.  I freaked out a little when I first heard it was going to be a girl, but after several months to hash it out in my own mind I was ready.  We found out that we are having a boy this time.

While having dinner the other night with our friends that where very close to their due date, my wife was asking questions of the mother to be and suddenly declared they where having a daughter.  Our friends had decided to not find out the sex, but my wife was sure.  On July 4th they had a daughter.  A woman at work is pregnant and I heard that she is having a daughter,  and some other friends that are a week away from finding out the gender I feel sure are also going to have a girl.  I'm sure it is me being a bad person, but I'm sadly jealous of all of them. 

As long as it took us to get pregnant I should be glad to be in the position of having a child.  I am glad, I'm happy that the baby is now big enough for my wife to feel him moving.  I'm happy that we can be in the position to have a child, can afford it, have the space and time and energy.  I'm glad for all of that, I still in my heart want to have a daughter.